My angels!

My angels!

Sunday, October 25, 2009

The kids and the idea of a new baby

Evie knows that mommy is going to have a baby, and is excited about it. I think. Christopher has no idea what we are talking about, and I don't think he cares either. He just glances at me or my belly and then continues whatever he is doing.

Evie on the other hand copies everything I do. So of coarse there is a baby in her belly to. The other day I ran to the bathroom and said "I am going to vomit!" Later she ran to the kitchen, because she thought that was where I went. She also said, "I am going to vomit!" She does know what vomit is. I told her no mommy vomits in the toilet not the trash can, and then I flush it away. So she went into the bathroom, and made vomit noises then flushed the toilet. When she came out she said "I vomited!" I just said "OH!" Not wanting to give it to much attention. I don't want to discourage or encourage the behavior.

She also told my husband the other day during her bath that she wants a sister, and we should name her princess Leia! I thought this was funny since she has only heard that name a couple of times. Then today she told me she had a sister in her tummy! I again just said, "Oh."

Saturday, October 24, 2009

miserable momma

This week has been hell. I started feeling a little nauseous Monday, and it slowly got worse as the week progressed. Today I woke up at 6:00 am just so I could run to the bathroom and vomit! That was great. Then I felt horrible all day long. I am so tired. I am not getting any thing done. Our house looks horrible. I haven't had dishes piled up like this in years. My poor husband and kids have to deal with cranky impatient sick mommy all day. It is awful. I cried today and told my husband I can't do this. His smart ass asked if I wanted an abortion. I replied no I just wanted someone else to be miserable for 9 months not me! Like him! I seriously don't know how I am going to get through this. I know things are going to get worse before they get better. I think it's a girl, because my daughter made me this sick, but my son didn't.

I feel nauseous no matter what I do. I get super thirsty then feel sick for drinking to much water. I feel like I am on fire, or freezing cold. I feel tired, and just yucky. I have no energy. My breasts ache like hell. Plus, I must be sleeping differently because my neck aches. I toss and turn all night, and feel like I haven't slept at all. I wake up throughout the night with my stomach burning.

When its not the pregnancy keeping me up the kids are taking turns waking me up through the night. Evie is potty trained (mostly) she wakes up once or twice a night and goes potty. Of coarse she wakes me up to! Christopher wakes up, and drinks from his bottle or plays with my hair. Then I wake up if hubby is tossing and turning or just getting up. I am suck a light sleeper I think I need my own room, one that is freezing cold because I get hot the most at night!

I know I will get through this I have no choice. I just have to take one day at a time, and just ignore the dirty dishes. I'll get to them when I get to them. I also am buying more quick and easy foods, because I can't guarantee I will be up to cooking when it's time to cook!

Sunday, October 18, 2009

vomit in the car!

I didn't think anything of Christopher having a sucker in the car after lunch today. He has had suckers tons of times before with no problems, but this sucker must have been cracked or he bit into it just right. He choked on the piece that broke off in his mouth and began vomiting. I happened to be at a stop sign so just slammed the car into park and hopped in to the back.

First I made sure the piece was out, and thankfully it came out with the vomit. However, there was so much vomit we couldn't just go home. I had to take all his clothes off. There was still lots of vomit on the car seat. I did my best to get it all together in his clothes, but there was so so so much. It was horrible.

Thursday, October 15, 2009

Fast day

Today went by to fast. I think. We had so much going on today that it wore us all out, and we didn't even finish everything. I think my problem is that I want to do too many things in a day. It is just not possible to be two places at once, but I haven't mastered time management enough yet. Which I really need to with another baby on the way. I am working on being able to make a daily schedule, like in school! So when the bell rings I know what comes next no matter what. I'd love to be that organized.

Evie had preschool today, but at first she didn't want to go. I know it was because she was tired this morning. She didn't go to sleep until around 11 last night. I caught her crawling out of the bedroom! I guess she thought if she crawled I wouldn't see her. It wasn't a baby type crawl either, but more like a commando low crawl (she meant business)! She didn't escape though.

Christopher has behavioral therapy this morning to. So I had to hurry and get the house clean, or clean enough for other people to come in! It went well. He was being silly. This was the first time I have ever seen him act shy. He hid behind our couch! Then he refused to talk to her for most of the time. Oh, well! This was the first visit, and it was more of an interview anyways to see what he needs.

My sister came by to. Which was nice because I got to visit with my nephew, he's 6 months and really starting to develop his own personality. He gets freaked out by Christopher, who is very loud at times. We spent most of the day visiting. I had wanted to take the kids to see Toy Story, but Christopher took a late nap. Which means he slept to late for us to go. That just meant we got to visit more, and save money!

I am completely exhausted so I didn't get much done today. I'm tired because I didn't get any sleep last night. That's my own fault. I stayed up to late online! Sometimes that is the only way I get time to myself. It's a trade off. I'm hoping to go to bed soon! Keep your fingers crossed!

Other than that I just get sore aches every now and then. Some abdominal cramping, and occasional breast tenderness. I am going to have my doctor send me for an ultrasound though. Because whenever I sneeze or cough I get a sharp stabbing pain in my left pelvic region.

Wednesday, October 14, 2009


I am just not having a good day. I woke up later than I wanted to, and I was exhausted. The kids were asleep so I hoped into the shower. Only to have Christopher come in crying. He was fine when I asked him if he needed a shower, but it was hard to shower since he wouldn't let go of my leg! I got ready for work, it took longer than normal since I felt nauseous this morning. I ate some cheese though, and went to work 45 minutes late. The kids didn't seem to mind me leaving, which was good and bad!

After work Christopher had his Occupational therapy, but this was the first visit so all she did was interview me. The house was a mess since daddy was in charge this morning! Oh, well. I did my best to clean the living room before she arrived. Then we left and ran some errands. We checked out a house it was cute, but right next to a railroad track! No way!

When we got home I sat down, and like a wave I felt horrible pain throughout my breast. It was awful like they had just ran a marathon! I sat there and told hubby, "Oh, man my boobs hurt!" He joked and said, "Got milk!" I didn't find it funny! How can you laugh at anything when your breasts feel like they were beat up. I lasted a while and finally I can relax! Plus, now the kids are asleep!

I had antibiotics a couple weeks ago, and thought it gave me a yeast infection. So I bought an over the counter treatment to help. It was on the safe list, but it didn't help at all. It made me worse. It's slightly embarrassing so I won't go into details, but it sounds like a Bacterial infection according to this online doctor. I am talking to a Gynecologist online at

Thankfully I only have to pay him $18, and not the $75 I'd have to pay at the emergency room. Which is were I am headed if I don't figure something out. Still I am not sure what I think about their website and services. At least it gives me piece of mind for the time being. I'll still call my doctor tomorrow. The information from the online doctor will at least help me know what to say to my doctor's office. Hopefully that will help out my cause here. I can't have some type of infection for 3 weeks, with no answers.

I am so mad at my doctor whose office said he can't see me for 3 weeks. I am also mad at the doctor's office because when I called the first question they asked me was what insurance do I have. Hello, you're not only interested in money! What happened to caring about your patients??? We live in a messed up world.

Saturday, October 10, 2009

Goose Festivle

We took the kids to the Goose festivle today. It was fun, but to chilly and windy out. The kids rode on a couple rides. Two of the rides I had to go on with them. The carosel and the strawberry go round. As you can guess they both spun round and round in circles. I thought I was gonna die! I can't handle those kind of things anymore! The kids had a blast so it was worth it. Then they played some games (duck pond and fishing). We checked out the crafts. I got an ornament for our tree. It has 4 snowmen each with our names on them, and says "The Menears 2009". It is so cute. I bought one years ago when Evie (my first born was a baby), so I was really excited to get another one. Over all it was fun, but way to expensive (we should have stayed home!).

Lazy day!

I had a lazy day with a long nap! Thank you nana, papa, and hubby! Hubby has been great! Watching the kids for me and making food for me when I don't feel up to it. Thank Goodness we were visiting the in-laws this weekend. The extra help is a Godsend especially since I was totally wiped out! I really needed some sleep!

I have been feeling so tired and blah lately. Today I felt nauseous but not! If that makes any sense! So thank you to my family for letting me lay around all day! I could get used to this! Unfortunately, our lives gotta return to normal on Monday! Weekend getaways are still sooo nice!

The thing I don't like is that my scar from my C-section has been itching! It feels wierd, and it is uncomfortable! It usually doesn't last long! Oh well that is probably something I will have to get used to. I'm sure it will only get worse as things stretch in there!

Friday, October 9, 2009

I'm Pregnant!

Yep, It's official I am certainly definitely pregnant! I had my doctor order a blood test today! So there is no doubt! I have mixed feelings! Of coarse I am happy and excited, but I am also worried. Babies cost A LOT! Plus, they need lots of attention, and I already have 2 who need lots of attention. I don't want to short change anyone! I really worry about that. I don't know if that makes sense or not, but I can't think how to put that into words, without sounding harsh. I don't mean it negatively, but it is a huge concern for me. I know the kids probably won't care, but they won't ever know anything else either.

I have been really tired lately for about 3 weeks (I think). I have also been cranky (moody), and impatient or less patient than normal (which is probably more than the average Joe!). You don't survive Irish Twins without having a lot of patience already! I have been eating more too! Which I don't need to do. I am already overweight! The worst thing is I crave Pepsi, so bad! Some days all I think until I drink a pop is PEPSI!

I also have been having cramps the past 3 or 4 days. At times I feel like I am being pulled apart. I just don't feel good, and I don't know how much of this is normal. I imagine it is totally normal. Since I've already had 2 C sections over the last 2 1/2 years! I also get a sharp pain when I cough or sneeze. Which in the past when that happened I was told it was a cyst rupturing, but I wasn't pregnant then! I will probably ask the doctor to send me for an ultrasound on Monday to make sure that everything is ok in there! I'm sure it is, but it would be nice to know for sure.

Thursday, October 8, 2009

Still freaking!

Well I told hubby the news or maybe news! As I figured he is excited! He did say that this means he's gonna have to be nice to me (if I am in fact pregnant)! I'm left with one question, "You're not nice now, and you know it? Hummmmmm........

The plan for now is to keep it between us and see if I can get a blood test tomorrow to confirm it either way! So hopefully I can sleep tonight!

I did ask a friend about it and she said the same thing happened to her with her first child. She said the reason she had negative results was because it was to early for that particular test. I know that one of the tests I took (the positive one) said you could get results as early as 4 or 5 days before your period was due! We shall see!

I'm freaking out here!

I have been really tired lately, which I just chalked up to the kids not sleeping through the night. Despite the fact that they rarely sleep through the night and I should be used to it. Then something my mom said the other day got me thinking. Out of the blue she was drilling me "Are you pregnant? Are you sure? You're sure your not pregnant?" What the heck she's nuts I thought.

Then today as I was going to the bathroom I thought what the heck I'll take a pregnancy test. I had 3 of them, one left over from a few months ago. My husband insisted I was pregnant so we bought tests, and I was right no baby! We still had a test. It was a double pack name brand "Answer," since I had that I decided to take it. It was positive! I peed on it longer than 5 seconds because I didn't read the instructions!

So I freaked. I had 2 tests I bought at a dollar store and decided to take those as well. They were both negative! So I'm not sure what to think or do! I don't want to tell anyone if I'm not pregnant, but I want to know. Maybe the first test was better than the dollar store ones?????

I have no idea what to do, but I am majorly freaking out!!!! I don't even want to tell hubby yet. I think he wants another one right now and would be bummed if I wasn't pregnant. I will be happy and sad. I know another one would be more sharing of me for the kids and I don't think that is fair for them since they are so young! I wanted to wait until they are a little older and more independent. I don't want to have to rush them!

Wednesday, October 7, 2009

Nice day!

Today was the first nice day we have had in a while. Hubby took the car to work, so we were stuck at home. I didn't mind since I really needed to clean the whole house! Because Monday and Tuesday daddy watched the kids while I worked for my mom for a bit. I think it was a total of 10 hours that I was gone, but they managed to destroy the entire house! I'm not kidding! I have no idea how my little munchkins made so much of a mess! I asked hubby if he helped them make the mess or something. He just looked at me funny!

So the entire morning the kids and I cleaned. Every toy they own was out and somewhere other than where it should have been! We had fun, and the kids helped a lot. Or at least when the weren't actually helping they weren't making more messes (that alone helped out A LOT!). So after nap I was craving chocolate and Pepsi, and since the kids (or really all of us) deserved a reward we set out for a walk. To the local gas station to get chocolate and pop!

It was fun and probably 8 blocks of walking all together. After stopping at the gas station we sat in the local high school parking lot (on a curb) since school was out, and enjoyed a snack! Then we headed home. The school had some small pine trees that the kids were running around, and then they decided to put all the pine cones in a pile. I thought no big deal, right?

No it wasn't a big deal until I realized they were covered in tree sap! I cleaned up Christopher it came right off of him, but it really liked Evie and wouldn't come off. The rest of the way home she refused to hold my hand. She said," Don't touch me! I dirty!"

I felt bad. I didn't know or at least didn't think about it. So home we went and straight into the tub they went. Then I noticed she even had it on her neck! The little that was in her hair I got out, without having to cut her hair! Thank you God!

I couldn't get the stuff off her neck and hands. I felt bad because her skin was getting sore from scrubbing. I called my husband he didn't know what to do. Thankfully he works with a lot of guys and someone knew what to do. First he was told to use paint thinner, I don't think so! Then gas, definitely not. I heard him tell the guy "its for my 2 year old".

Finally he said Windex would work. Great I didn't have Windex. I didn't have any of the other stuff either, but I definitely wasn't gonna try them. I figured Windex was the safest and borrowed some from my neighbors. It came off with a little effort. Much easier than I had expected! At last she was clean!

At least it was a nice sunny day 59 degrees out, and the most important thing was we had a blast!

Sunday, October 4, 2009

Blog Award!

I am so thankfully to Marisa at Mama needs a hobby for honoring my blog with this blog award.
The rules of the "One Lovely Blog Award" are:

Accept the award, post it on your blog together with the name of the person who has granted the award, and his or her blog link. Pass the award to 15 other blogs that you’ve newly discovered. Remember to contact the bloggers to let them know they have been chosen for this award.
Here are my lovely blog picks (I couldn't find 15 right now):

The kids are not wanting me on the computer today! So I will have to finish my list later!


Yep, Evie has already had a homework assignment from her preschool class. She is to practice using scissors! Something she has never done, at least at home! We even had to go buy scissors for her! I was not to thrilled about this, but knowing that it is a skill she needed to practice I got the scissors.

I made multiple copies of the page the teacher sent home for practice and this morning let her practice. She needs the practice! I cringed every time she said, "Oh I cut myself!" I reminded her to be careful, and thanked God that the preschool scissors weren't sharp enough to actually cut her!

I learned that we are gonna but heads when it comes to doing homework. I kept trying to show her the right way to cut. Or at least the right way according to the teacher's instructions to parents! I have no idea, but I imagine it is safer, I hope so. She kept arguing with me and telling me, "No, I do it!" I tried to assure her, "Yes, you will do it, but you must do it the right way!" We battled a little till I realized I was arguing with a 2 year old. I put the scissors down she cried. I said, " when your done (crying) we will talk and I will give you the scissors back!" That seemed to work and she did try to use them the right way.

The teacher wants her to hold them with her thumb in the circle and finger in the oval, and then when she is cutting her thumb is to be on top. Which she holds it fine, but she turns it over and puts her fingers on top. It's when I stop her and correct her that we have problems. I am not looking forward to more difficult homework in later years!

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