just a random thought

I am so tired.  I have been staying up to late, and then to tired all day!  Ugh I need to break this circle. I probably should have gone to bed, but hubby will be home soon.  I would be posting more, but as you can tell I've been to tired.

My In-laws got us a new couch and love seat (new to us anyways), and I have been rearranging the house.  And cleaning floor to ceilings as I go.  I moved our tv and had to reroute the cable wires in the basement.  Not that difficult just time consuming.  Thank goodness my mom took the older 2 to see cars 2!  They loved it.  I moved to 2 old couches out and stacked them on the back porch.  Then moved the new ones where I wanted them.  The living room feels so much bigger now!  I can't hold my eyes open any more so goodnight world!

Here's the 411!!!

Tonight the house is clean and kids were in bed by 7:30 for the second night in a row. Of coarse they are not asleep (yet), but still that's gotta be a record!  I even folded and put away laundry!  I am amazing!  Ok the kids helped some.  I found out that if I tell Topher I can clean faster than him... Well lets just say he can clean really fast! 

I have  a job interview tomorrow!  I have no idea what position it is for because I applied for 5 positions at the company I am going to!  So I guess I'll see when I get there.  I am excited, but realized I have nothing to wear!  I've been a stay at home mom for 4 years now and my wardrobe consists mostly of t-shirts (most of which are stained from kids). 

So now we have to take the kids to the splash park, get me an outfit, get me to my interview, get the kids naps, food, and take daddy to the doctor all in one day!  I hope it can be done!  I do this all the time.  I set way to high of standards and can't measure up.  Then I get upset when I drop all the balls I'm trying to juggle. 

I rearranged my bed room, and almost finished organizing everything.  I'm making space for me.  I had the space, but never organized it. Since we moved in it became the dump spot of everything and anything.  I now have a spot to do my make-up, write, and a desk to start becoming a coupon mom!  I know if those lady's on extreme coupon can save that much money so can I. That's my goal anyways. 

So the past week has been pretty busy. 

Some Pics from Ally's 1st Birthday!

Mommy baked the cake, but daddy was the artist!

Not quite sure about all this...

What is going on here guys?

Oh, Ok I'm liking this!

Cheer competition in pictures!

Ready to go!

Waiting Patiently!

Having Fun...

Ally wants to cheer too!

Trophey, 3rd place ribbon, and flowers...

The pics of her competition didn't come out...but if I can I'll upload her competition video to youtube.  Knowing me that will happen next year sometime!

Evie's Cheer Competition

Was so much fun.  She did so well we were all so proud of her.  She had so much fun.  The only thing that wasn't cool was having to get up at 4am to make it there by 6:30am.  We had to drive an hour and a half to get to it, and because of where it was and where we live there was an hour time change between the two.  Unfortunately, they were an hour ahead of us!  The teams practice time started at 8 (7 our time) and the competition started at 9!  Plus, the coach wanted everyone there 30 minutes early just to make sure they all made it on time!

She cried a couple times at the practice, but i think she was just tired.  They folded her socks down and she said she was cold.  All the girls were away from the parents and she wanted me to stay with her.  Daddy and I took turns staying with her until the competition started.  Then she seemed fine.  She is also the youngest on the team and didn't really know any of the girls.

So did so good and remembered all her moves.  It was awesome.  Half way through another girl blocked my view of her so I missed a little of her in the video.  Next time I will definitely make sure to ask her coach to put smaller girls in front or stagger them more so parents can see each child!

Her team took third place out of ten teams.  All the girls got trophies, but only the teams that placed got ribbons.  We also bought her some flowers.  So she was super excited.  Nana and Papa bought her a cheer shirt and we got her a water bottle to keep special for practices!  Of coarse she wants to continue cheer now!  As well as karate and dance lessons!  I'm gonna have to find a job to pay for all the stuff she wants to do!  Just kidding!  Plus, until she is older it will only be one thing at a time.  We believe kids need time to be kids!

Ally's first birthday!

I wasn't gonna post this until I uploaded the pics, but I realized if I waited to long I would forget stuff.  It has already been 2 days since her birthday, and I am sure I'll forget something.

The day was amazing.  I had to get up at 4am for Evie's cheer competition.  We left around 5.  When we finally arrived home I began cleaning for the party.  I ran to walmart for some supplies.  I made an Elmo cake.  Hubby decorated it, and did an amazing job! Hopefully I will get the pics off my camera and on the computer tomorrow (don't hold your breath, I am the queen of procrastination!).

I had planned on having the party around 3 or 4.  So I didn't plan on dinner or really any food at all!  I just figured we would eat cake open presents and that would be it!  I thought we would all be so tired I didn't want it to be a big deal, but at the same time it's her first birthday.  Well everyone arrived a little late.  So the party didn't start till 5 or 5:30.  Plus, everyone was hungry! I had little food, and most of it was frozen. 

My mom went to the store and got tons of food.  The kids swam in the pool. I was so surprised Evie and Topher were awake and having fun.  They had been up since 4:45am, and going strong all day!  They were so cute in the pool.  Topher was swimming like a big boy (which just means he wasn't screaming or crying that he was scared, the pool is only 32inches high!).  He was so proud of himself.  At one point her said, "I'm having fun mommy!" Which was so cute!

 I let Ally open a present because if was for outside.  A sand and water table. She loved it!  My mom got her a baby that plays peek a boo and a swim suit with built in floaty.  Nana and papa got her clothes, and she got more but I told you I already forgot stuff! 

When my mom got back with the food everyone was starving.  Ally was already in her highchair and a mess so we decided to have cake right away.  She liked her cake, but was totally freaked out by everyone singing her.  You could tell she didn't know whether to laugh or cry.  She loved her cake. Or I assume she did cause she ate a lot of it and made a huge mess.  So bad we decided just to put her into the bath! 

Everyone had tons of fun.  My mom, dad, sisters Abby and Rachael, and brother Isaac didn't leave till around 10!  Ally was so cranky at this point.  She carried her baby up to bed and didn't put it down during diaper change or getting her pjs on!  She cried when I took it away so I let her sleep with it.  All 3 of the kids were asleep within minutes of laying down!  I wish bed time was that easy every night!

Gratitude journal

Starting a gratitude journal is harder than I thought.  Every night I write 5 things I am grateful for.  The first 2 or 3 come very easy.  The rest take more work.  I have noticed a little change already.  During the day I am paying attention and looking for things that I am grateful for.  Of coarse I am doing this to make my journal writing easier, but the hope is that at some point it changes the way I look at things.  Thus, helping me become the person I want to be!

blogger problems

UGH, I wanted to comment on some people's blogs but it won't let me.  It just keeps going in a circle.  I click on post then it takes me to log in.  Then takes me back to the comment I am posting to enter the captia thingy (which I hate).  Then takes me back to log in to my google account.  I am already logged in thou.  I found the blog posts on my blogger dashboard!  I am so mad, but to frustrated to go through blogger help and figure it out!

Things kids say

I wanted a pop the other day as Topher and I were running errands.  I packed him a lunch box with snacks, but of coarse forgot anything for me!  So I told him I wanted a pop and asked him if he had one for me.  I knew the answer.  When he said "No!" I asked why he didn't bring me one.  His response was that "Nobody got you a pop cause you not a good girl!"  Apparently I was bad that day!  I couldn't say anything I almost died laughing.  I still don't know what I did wrong!

The kids were all sitting at a small table in the kitchen eating dinner while I cleaned the kitchen.  After they finished eating Evie went into her room and picked out her clothes for school.  When she finished the other kids were in the toy room playing.  I heard Evie say "Ally what are you doing? I haven't seen you in a while!"  It had been at most 5 minutes since she last saw her sister! 

Topher first Occupational therapy appointment

We were having a nightmare of a day, and I thought it was gonna be hell at his appointment.  He proved me wrong.  I was thinking who is this kid.  He was actually really good!  They did put him in a turtle swing in the beginning for maybe 10 or 15 minutes.  He was an angel after that!  I gotta get us one of those!  I have no idea where we would put it, but that might be a worth while investment.  I was amazed at how calm and well behaved he was after that.

They also put him to work with weights on his ankles and wrists.  He had to carry heavy balls around the room, and do various tasks with them.  He loves doing work at home to.  He did really well.  Looking back at the day after his therapy he was relatively good.  He did have a couple instances but those were more due to him being very tired.  He woke up at 4:40 that morning!  He is seriously crazy, who gets up that early!  I'm joking.  I have never been an early bird.  He usually gets up around 7 or 8.

So our first experience I would have to say considering everything was very good.  After a few weeks she will have a home plan for us and hopefully we will see some improvements.

Gratitude journal

Thinking of starting a gratitude journal.  I think I get so busy with all our daily coming and goings that I get forget to actually live my life in the moment.  I have so much to be grateful for, but still find myself bogged down and battling off and on with depression.  So my goal is to get back to myself. Become that happy and always smiling girl I was in high school.  Take time to focus on the positives and leave the negatives for God to sort out. 

Too often at the end of the day I've been so rushed I can't even remember what happened that day.  I feel like I am living my life in a fog, and the worst thing is I am missing it! So I am gonna stop and smell the roses. Slow down and make some changes.  I think the one thing that will be the most helpful in this reprogramming project is to start and stick with a gratitude journal.  I am not sure if it will be online or private, thou. If you don't see it posted I decided not to share.  I am hoping this will help me get a good start by changing my outlook, and allowing me to focus on the positives.

I will let you know if it is helping me and how my progress is going.

Blaaahhhhh

I'm not sure if that's a word or not, but that is kinda how I feel.  Unsure of everything.  I'm like a deer in headlights.  So afraid to move, or make the wrong move that I'm just sitting here.  We all know what happens to deer in headlights.