Hello!

I haven't posted in a while (6days) Obviously! I don't know what my problem has been. I just haven't had the energy for any thing. We are looking for a house to rent, and the search is not going so good. We want to take our time and find the prefect place, or close to it! We thought we found that on Craig's list, but I think she was just scamming! She had us sign up at freecreditreport360.com so she could see if we were excited in the past 5 years. Then we didn't hear anything else from her. We quickly cancelled those memberships, and now am just bummed out!

Plus, the 30th was my birthday. I am 31 now. Which only reminds me that I am not getting any younger! I just feel like the world is passing me by. It rained all day that day too! So we couldn't really do anything. We went out to eat last week at a Mexican restaurant and the service was horrible so it sucked big time. Imagine sitting with your 2 kids with no food or drinks for almost an hour. The kids were miserable and so were we!

It just feels like the weight of the world is on my shoulders, and all I want to do is stay in bed! Unfortunately though even when I can stay in bed I can't sleep!

I wish someone would clean my house! If my house were clean I would feel better, but I really don't want to do it! I feel like I am going crazy I clean the kitchen so within an hour it can get messed up again. The same with laundry. I don't want to do it!

I really want a job so when I feel like this I can pay someone to help me out! That would be so nice! However, I don't want to be away from my kids EVER! For a while here and there would be good, but a job requires you to be away for set times. I don't want to miss anything!

I am thinking about starting to do day care. Maybe if I watched 2 or 3 other kids I could make enough money and still see my kids! I did the math and getting a job out of the home doesn't make sense. I would pay almost 300 a week for day care! Unreal. If I watched 2 kids and made 300 a week! Hey, good deal! Maybe!