It starts out slow and completely takes over. First it is small and barely noticeable. You feel the tightness, the gentle little squeeze around your chest. It doesn't go away. Your heart is in invisible hands and they are unforgiving. The pain is bearable so you go on. Then it hits the pit of your stomach. Slight nausea at first. But the pain is real. Your stomach takes over it aches and throbs. Now you don't know which is worse the chest pain or your stomach. You just want to throw up. It doesn't let up. You want to cry. You don't know what to do. How did you get here. How did you become this fragile little mess. The tears start to flow as you think, "how can I possibly go on?" Your thoughts race to what could be, what should be. You just don't want to think. You hate yourself for feeling this way. Now you just want the pain to end. It's all so real and you don't know what to do. Again you think "how can I possibly go on?"
Suddenly you stop. You wipe those tears from your eyes. You must go on and you know it. You find your strength and muster up your courage. Your eyes burn from the sting of your tears. Your chest still feels the tight squeeze. Your stomach is still tied up in knots. You feel like you might vomit, but you know you will not. There are things to do and you know what must be done. You found your strength and you go on. You carry this burden this horrible pain. You hide it with a smile and fake that everything is fine. You do your best to suffer silently. It shows through thou in little glimpses. Lucky for you most people don't notice. You're always on the verge of tears. You bite your lip, and hold it in.
Your sadness comes out in anger and frustration. You hurt those you love and that makes it so much harder. You push them away when you need them most. But you know this pain. It is familiar because it has been here before. This pain is unbearable. You choose to suffer alone. But you are not alone. I know your fears and I feel your pain. I want you to know it is alright. Hold on to something and hold it tight; because tomorrow is another day.
Suddenly you stop. You wipe those tears from your eyes. You must go on and you know it. You find your strength and muster up your courage. Your eyes burn from the sting of your tears. Your chest still feels the tight squeeze. Your stomach is still tied up in knots. You feel like you might vomit, but you know you will not. There are things to do and you know what must be done. You found your strength and you go on. You carry this burden this horrible pain. You hide it with a smile and fake that everything is fine. You do your best to suffer silently. It shows through thou in little glimpses. Lucky for you most people don't notice. You're always on the verge of tears. You bite your lip, and hold it in.
Your sadness comes out in anger and frustration. You hurt those you love and that makes it so much harder. You push them away when you need them most. But you know this pain. It is familiar because it has been here before. This pain is unbearable. You choose to suffer alone. But you are not alone. I know your fears and I feel your pain. I want you to know it is alright. Hold on to something and hold it tight; because tomorrow is another day.
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